Well, it’s been a while since I have managed this blog. I give full appreciation and recognition to my new apartment. Have you ever considered that the land attracts things? Things like bad vibes and dysfunction, or hard work and honest folk? Well, I have a potential theory that the land I was living on before may have played into my night terrors and nightmares. But then, let me pose you this question: after sometime of not experiencing sleep troubles such as before, why is it when I’m highly stressed and have too much contact with a specific individual a glimmer of what was returns? Maybe not just the land, maybe a little association too.
Last night I had a wretched dream. Not a night terror, but just a good old fashioned, terrifying nightmare. I was at a BBQ tonight and couldn’t touch the meat on the grill because my stomach had turned so much. But I admit I am sure the dream seemed so much worse because I hadn’t had a nightmare in so long. My dream was about the ever lovely, Mike Meyers. Yes, that’s right, Halloween’s main character. This is a little strange for me as I have never seen the films before. The dream started out with Mr. Meyers, we’ll call him Mike, with Mike in a house with another man who looked exactly like him- except this twin was not evil, he was a well adjusted, healthy, functional man. Flash scene over to myself and others bringing presents, streamers, and balloons over to this man’s apartment. It appears it is his birthday and many of us (as if family and friends) are coming over to celebrate. Long story short, there is a brutal killing of this man before we enter the apartment in which Mike decapitates his twin and shoves his head through the bottom of the birthday cake, he hides the body. When we enter there is lots of friendly hello’s, but Mike is pretty quiet. We are wondering if he is feeling okay, but whatevs- lets cut the cake. I’m standing beside him holding the plates and he takes a very sharp 12″ pastry knife and begins to cut the cake. It’s a perfect slice of icing on top, a little cake, and then horrifyingly I relaize there’s flesh in the inside of the cake. While I’m staring at it, someone takes it out my hand not seeing that there is flesh on the inside and they begin passing the cake around and eating. All I can do is stand there in shock and horror staring at Mike. At that moment it’s as if all of his memories, including the butcher of this man, starts flooding into my own mind. Then I just have very vague, sharp, quick memories of my dream of screaming, and me trying to fight this man off, hiding in the apartment while he butchers other people, and trying to escape. It was terrifying. I remember the sickening feeling in my stomach because of the cake bit, and waking up with horrible pains in my abdomen.
I’m trying to figure out though, were the pains in my stomach what brought on the nightmare?-as food has a funny way of leading dreams. Or did the pains in my stomach come from the dream as I’ve experienced my body sympathizing with the pain in dreams previously. It’s really an odd question for me. I don’t understand it, and quite frankly I’ve been living so comfortably without nightmares and night terrors, that I kind of wonder how much it really is worth exploring. I have been spending some time analyzing my mental health at this time in my life. Most recently I have come to terms with some things in my past, and although I do not care to disclose them, I want to be fair and consider that it could be a combination of many things.
I find if anything, most of my nightmares primarily consist of gore. I can watch any horror or scary movie and don’t find it the least bit diturbing because I know what I’ve seen in my dreams is worse. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not spending all my nights watching movies about massacre’s or gruseome murder. I do love and frequently watch British Mysteries, but I doubt Miss Marple plays out in my mind that much. 😉
The night before last I dreamt there was a man in my room with an axe and every time I moved in my sleep he began chopping off my limbs. Huh- weird huh? I’d wake up with a start nearly every time and then within a few minites fall back asleep to have the dream repeat itself.
I remember when I used to violently awake in the middle of night and think for a blinding second there was someone standing at the foot of my bed. It always scared me to pieces.
But anyways, not to stray too far from the topic. I find the weapons of choice in my dreams are usually axes, knives or chains. It’s very rare I ever drown in a dream and interestingly enough never seem to die completely. I always wake up just before that happens. Which reminds me of how I’ll also be posting about not being able to remember the dreams until much later or not at all. So what’s with the excessive violence and the intensified look at all the blood and gore?- and not to mention such terrible ways of dieing and death.
Well here's what my research has said:
Courtesy of Dream Moods:
To dream that you are murdered, suggests that some important and significant relationship has been severed and you are trying to disconnect yourself from your emotions. It also represents your unused talents.
To dream that you have been killed, suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions. Alternatively, it refers to drastic changes that are happening in your life.
This dream may also represent a part of you or your life that you wish would leave you alone and stop creating a nuisance. Killing may represent the killing off of old parts of yourself and old habits.
To see a killer in your dream, suggests that an essential aspect of your emotions have been cut off. You feel that you are losing your identity and your individuality. Alternatively, this dream may represent purification and the healing process. You are standing up for yourself and putting a dramatic end to something.
To dream that you are wounded by a knife, is symbolic of masculine or animalistic aggression.
To see chains in your dream, signifies your need to break free from a routine, old idea, or a relationship. If you are being chained, then some part of you is being forcefully put in check.
Courtesy of Dream Sleep:
If you are the one being murdered, then this may show how you are at the mercy of your emotions. Perhaps you have repressed your instincts that are now seeking vengeance.
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|knife (as a weapon)||Someone threatening you with a knife can represent:
A wish for power.
A person having or wielding a weapon can represent an attempt to feel powerful, often due to feelings of powerlessness, fear, insecurity, etc.
Variations of meaning could include domination, aggression, masculinity, self-protection, or commanding respect when the gun wielder feels a lack of self-importance.
A weapon used with the intent to take advantage of others can represent ill will, disrespect, victimizing, or taking from others—physically, mentally, emotionally, or in terms of time or energy (such as your boss demanding you work extra hours without pay).
A chain can represent limitations put in place by an authority or by you.
Dreaming that you are chained up could mean:
- You’re feeling that someone is trying to control, limit, or deny you freedoms
- You’re feeling that you’re limiting yourself, such as with too much self-discipline, narrow thinking, or limited beliefs
- The idea that some person or situation is attempting to take power from you or victimize you, especially mentally or emotionally. For example, dreaming that a co-worker kills you may represent when she got assigned the project you wanted last week, and you’re blaming her for your not getting that opportunity.
- A fear of ill will, being taken advantage of, manipulation, or victimization
A dream that you or someone else is dying can represent:
- A feeling of low “life energy” or a weariness in your life, perhaps due to an emotionally or mentally sapping situation, a physical condition that makes you tired, etc.
- Coming to the end of a phase, such as of childhood
- The idea of “dying” mentally, emotionally, or spiritual, such as due to lack of nurturing, inspiration, or fulfillment